i am no one of great consequence

hmmmm, wellity wellity

I am probably moving. In a few months, but soon. Too soon. I seriously doubt i can look after myself, ill try, but i aint never really done it before. I feel too young, much too young.
i realise there are so many people i am going to miss, people who i hope are going to miss me. i feel torn. Stay with family and friends, or go and live my own silly existance? Im looking forward to Uni, Coffs, new people, but i am suddenly so happy here.

My Dad, forever devoted to me; My little sisters...i dont know what ill do without them to protect, my identity is almost completely made in being a big sister. Mum. My friends...Bek, Christy, Maree, Christanie, Amanda, Matty, all of them.
i am so happy here, i dont want to go.

Plenty of my other friends have done it. Two of my closest...and they were younger then me. But they wanted to, there was not much keeping them...their lives lay ahead.

Security is cruel. I am happy and secure in myself, and my world, and now im going to change it all. It has to happen. There is a chance i wont get in. i just might fail the HSC and stay here, but then ill regret much. Too much

it doesnt matter, ill go and live and be happy, or not. and enjoy it, or not. but ill have done it.
I am no one of great consequence and no one will know, many will care, but soon, no one will know...