just a little longer

well, well, well. it really is suprising how i continue to blog with so little to actually say. Nothing of much consequence, nothing of much importance, nothing of much interest...still i enjoy it! thats the main thing. I really enjoy this.

Today i pulled out my B.O.W. from last year, im going to improve it, and in some cases, finish it. looking at it after a time i can see what i should have done, but also what i did well. My topic was obesiety, and how it can affect, and destroy someones life. I based it on a girl who wants to be a ballerina, but obviously cannot. i think i ended up calling it "Shattered Dreams". She is overdosing on prozac in one painting and in the other she is looking at several different mirrors, some reflecting an overexhaggeration of her, and some showing what she would love to look like. The main one is a full frontal nude...my christian school didnt like it much. i was allowed to show it once, then too many people complained, so it got banned. i was pretty pissed...spending ALOT of time on something that wasnt even going to be able to be seen....oh well. In fron of the two paintings are nine sculptures. 8 of ballerinas thin and graceful, and one ver large one. i mad tutus for them all, and put ribbon around thier legs....it really took a long time. I miss art. i miss my art class. i still hang out with them, they are actually the group of girls i hang out with at school; but it is so very different in an art class room...more personal, more annoying really. we all hated each other, but we knew if we didnt have each other we would kill ourselves instead of each other....

Im glad to have somthing creative to work on again. i have no creative subjects this year, and i was starting to really bake a whale...

in case you are not stalking me, and do not know what the inside of my room looks like, it is yellow. But besides that, two walls are covered with posters, newspaper clipings and any intereting picture i can fine. Ranging from black and white shots of babies, to 75 year old women in latex to leunig cartoons to articles about einstein's brain....i really like my walls. I have a great big "Kill Bill Vol. 1" poster above my bed...she's pretty hot. Not that i much go for blonds. or women.

ITs relatively depressing fighting your little sisters off the phone and out of your room, just to go online, just to be met with an empty inbox and no one online...no one loves me.

I've lasted till now i will last a little longer.