wishing that you knew

its october.
its christy's birthday.
its my birthday in 27 days. ill be 18.

i dont know what to say. perhaps i shall make another installment of nonsence blogs by annalise. yes thats what ill do

while she lies down, she thinks of the last time she saw you. you watched her, as she walked past you. you watched her as she laughed and you saw her the last time she cried. and you watched and you did not talk, and you did not move and you did not think she saw you watching.
she saw. she watched you out of the corner of her laughing eyes, through her tears as she begged for help. and the lst time she saw you, you cried. you watched, walk past one last time, and you kissed her goodnight on her cheek in your mind, and you wish she knew it, and you walked away. and you miss her, and you thought she didint know.
while she lies down she remebers the last time she saw you. her hand moves across her cheek, touching the spot you kissed. wishing that you knew.

im done.