feeler
im very lonely at the moment. and i dont know why.
im sad. i fisnnish school in less then 48 hours. thats not long at all. not tomorrow, but the next day. after the formal, there are so many people im not going to see, ever again. and whats worse is that we dont have a huge class....19 people, we are all really close.
life goes on.
im feeling a little wierd actually...not even chemical brothers is making me feel better.
on the plus side i have tickets to the ben lee concert...SPANK ME THATS GOING TO BE GOOD...im quite excited about it actually
but yeah. i dont know. i think im just sad. its a big thing, i think to be suddnely spat out into the world and expected to fucntion... i dont know much really
i dont even know why im bothering with this.
its funny how a distance makes missing someone worse....
"where are you now? coz im kissing you"
im sad. i fisnnish school in less then 48 hours. thats not long at all. not tomorrow, but the next day. after the formal, there are so many people im not going to see, ever again. and whats worse is that we dont have a huge class....19 people, we are all really close.
life goes on.
im feeling a little wierd actually...not even chemical brothers is making me feel better.
on the plus side i have tickets to the ben lee concert...SPANK ME THATS GOING TO BE GOOD...im quite excited about it actually
but yeah. i dont know. i think im just sad. its a big thing, i think to be suddnely spat out into the world and expected to fucntion... i dont know much really
i dont even know why im bothering with this.
its funny how a distance makes missing someone worse....
"where are you now? coz im kissing you"
posted by Wiggy at 8:03 pm
1 Comments:
This is matty.
I am at school on the second day back after you have all gone, kinda feels like more than you just left, it feels like part of me got up and walked out the door too, I am not entirely here anymore.
A shell maybe, with cracks, through my chest and head. Close to breaking point. Somethings dont make sense anymore.
you leaving made me realise how close I had grown to you and how much i will miss your presence in the future. i cant believe your going to Coffs and I may never see you again.
There is something so utterly lonely about this school and about me. Its not just because of you all leaving - u know about the other thing - its breaking me apart and im sorry for loading you with this, and i know its not very private but I have this sick empty pit inside that has nothing to do with health.
I am so distant ...
I love you.
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