most everybody's mad here...

good evening dear hearts.

i am in the finest of moods. and might i just add, what a "Fine name philbert is". ok, so you have to know my mum and i to get that...i wonder how the darling is.

"The Cat only grinned when it saw Alice. It looked good- natured, she
thought: still it had verylong claws and a great many teeth, so she felt
that it ought to be treated with respect."

I wish i was a cheshire cat. i will be one day. i have decided. i will be a cheshire cat. forget university. pfft- there would be less need for psychologists if there were more chershire cats about. dont you agree? if there are bo cheshire cats, maybe some normal, less exuberant, cats, thats smiled more....like they do when they are lying in your lap, in the sun, listening to you read alice in wonderland to them. i love my cat. yes. i shall be a cheshire cat.

`Well! I've often seen a cat without a grin,' thought Alice; `but a grin without
a cat! It's the most curious thing I ever say in my life!'

indeed. i cant think of a better world really...

`Once,' said the Mock Turtle at last, with a deep sigh, `I was a real Turtle.'

So they went up to the Mock Turtle, who looked at them with large eyes full of tears, but said nothing.

`

Well, there was Mystery,' the Mock Turtle replied, counting off the subjects on
his flappers, `--Mystery, ancient and modern, with Seaography: then
Drawling--the Drawling-master was an old conger-eel, that used to come once
a week: he taught us Drawling, Stretching, and Fainting in Coils.'

i dont know sometimes. i do so desperately wish that i did not exist sometimes. then it would be eaier to feel as though i dont. understand? it would be easier and better understood to be melodramatic, and odd. it would be easier to be slightly misunderstood by everyone, because everyone else is odd, melodramatic and slightly misunderstood, and you are loved by all. and you love all. and noone thinks you are strange.

however, seeing as that is not about to happen...ill just have to continue being the silly thing that i am...i love my life

i am happy.